finding myself

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November 2009

iron mask

what you see is only half of what i am. i have a hundred different faces, a million different personalities. only a part of me is what i show you. i display a fraction of my true self. everything is just a facade. its not the truth of me. you dont know me. you never will.

Nov 29, 2009
just maybe, we're meant to be?

What happens when you’ve lost your inspiration.  I want someone or something to give me a reason.  Everyday I look for something to prove to me that I belong here.  I don’t find it.  I’ve fallen for a boy.  And everything is going good in my life for once.  I’ve learn how I can trust and who I needed to kick to the curb.  I’m finally not alone but I have this feeling something is missing.  I’m breathing deeper, looking closer, and walking a little slower.  I feel the sun on my face and I look up to the stars.  I think I’m going to let my life run it’s course and just enjoy the ride.  I’ll let the little things slide and enjoy every moment I’m blessed with.  I’ll remember every drop of wisdom that I hear.  I’m going to achieve and be proud.  I’m starting to get better with know who I am and understanding my feelings.  I’m slowly not being ashamed of myself and my looks.  I realize that beauty comes in different shapes and sizes, no matter what others believe or think.  I’m going to stick with my own beliefs and opinions.  I don’t even care if they are wrong, I’ll die fighting for them.  Trust is precious and it has to be earned, no more handing it.  I finally see that some people aren’t as friendly as they think they are.  I’m going to stop letting my emotion run my life.  I’m going to be the person I know I can be.  I’m finally understand who I am.  I’m finally getting to know myself. 

Letting go is growing up. It is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy. To let go is to open a door, and to clear a path and to set yourself free.  I’m going to forget the broken hearts and broken promises.  I’m going to let go of the liars and cheaters and boys who will never amount to anything. 

Most girls has three guys in her life: the one she loves, the one she hates, and the one she can’t live without. And in the end, they’re all the same guy.

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Garrett from The Maine dating Sierra from Versa Emerge

gaysiaftw:

nikkijean:

gaysiaftw:

nikkijean:

That will surely last~

what? is this true?

Nope just a rumor on fueled by gossip

oh omfg thank you

 oh dude, i was about to lose my mind if it was true.

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Nov 20, 2009
breakdown

I don’t understand why I go from being happy to sad so fast. I lay in bed feeling so alone. I miss you so much and I want to move on because your not coming back. I need you. I’m losing myself even more right now and I don’t know why. Everything was so calm and clear not it’s cloudy. Everything is out of place. I’m out of place. I’ve lost my way and your nor here to show me where to go or what to do. Your not holding my hand anymore or leaving me cute notes for me to wake up too. I’ve never missed anyone as much as you. I think sometimes I’m better alone because I don’t want to hurt anyone anymore. I live just to get through the day. Missing all the joy and beauty in the world and this my time to shine…

Light my way?

Nov 17, 2009
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i just wanna run.

Everything in my life is calming down.  It’s nice to just relax, I’m sitting in front of the fireplace watching old movies with my mom.  If you just hold on, just find the hope to face another day, everything will get better.  I’m trying this thing when I hold on to all the good memories and thoughts that I’ve had.  I just finishing reading “The Perks Of Being A Wallflower” and I loved it.  The writer did an amazing job, even though at times it was kind of weird or boring overall it was a really good book.  I suggest you read it, if you like reading.   The weekend is ending soon.  It’s been good so far, though Sunday brings new delights or horrors.  My saturday was nice for a change.  I feel a bit happier.  Lately I’ve been walking now this dark hallway and everytime I thought I saw the light something pulled me back in and now I know everything is okay.  I’ll be alright if I keep pushing forwards.   Everyone needs hope, it’s the one thing no one can take away. 

Please just don’t give up on me, because underneath all my mistakes, imperfections, and disappointments, I’m just a simple girl who really does love you, and I’m sorry if sometimes I’m just a little too shy to show it.

I hope everyone is well and having a wonderful weekend. 

Nov 15, 2009
farting.

My dog is farting so bad my mom and I can’t breath.  It’s horrible. 


OMG.

Nov 15, 2009
which one?

gaysiaftw:

chasingdreamsx:

the maine or metro station?

i hate trace cyrus and i love the whole maine group.  so my vote is for the maine :D

BOTH
but how do you even compare them if they sound nothing alike?

 I didn’t this boy asked me and I went off on him too lol. 

Nov 15, 2009
which one?

the maine or metro station?

i hate trace cyrus and i love the whole maine group.  so my vote is for the maine :D

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