January 2010
thirty two
Whenever we talk I get the greatest feeling ever. I can’t stop smiling, or when you say my name everything freezes. Because I know that even if its only for a second, I crossed your mind<3.
“I have so many things I want to tell you, but I need to keep reminding myself...”
December 2009
hottttt messss
I think it’s time for me to go to bed. I’m so tired and I have to stay up tonight again for New Years. Why is life moving so fast lately? I don’t understand anymore but I think it’s time I stop questioning everything. I’m just going to go where life takes me. This year has been weird. New friends and old friends and friend who left. New loves and true love. I...
thirty one
My Mother.
Omg, this woman annoys me and makes me want to scream. Deep down though I do love her. I’m so thankful for her because I don’t think I’d be where I am today without her help and support. She has her ways of being annoying but loving. We will never see eye to eye but she’s my mom, what can i do? I know we will have many more fights but I love her when she is...
thirty
Trust and my dog.
I wish I could trust people easily but I can’t anymore. They only person I’ll ever tell my secrets to are my dog because she just looks at me like weird and then she kisses me. She is my life. I love this my dog. Dreamy. I love coming home and waking her up just to give her a big hug and kiss. It makes me miss my old dog, Maggie. I had Maggie since I was three...
twenty nine
To be honest. I’m weird with relationships and I don’t think I make a good girlfriend. I never know what to say or do. Relationships sometimes scare me, when they get to intense I’m scared I’ll get hurt and then I want to run. I’m afraid I’m not worth it.
twenty eight
My first boyfriend.
Omg. I remember this too and I’m dying of laughter. We lasted one day and then we hated each other. So I don’t count him. My other boyfriend was Alex Merline. He was a twin and both were so bad which made them so cute. I was sleeping over my friend’s house and we were on the phone and omg I’m laughing so hard. I guess my friend’s brother...
twenty seven
Instead of sleeping, I’m up listening to The Maine and thinking. This year I’m going to be happy. I’m not going waste time in fighting. If I make a mistake, I’ll own up to it and learn from it and walk away. I’m done focusing on why it happened. It happened. Can’t be changed. I’m going to stop being so insecure and stop judging myself before others...
twenty six
My first kiss.
Oh I remember it…hehe. I was in pre school. I don’t remember who came first but I do know there were 4 boys. And they were all name Jordan. I remember one. We would go behind the play house and actually play house and we would french kiss and all the other kids would watch out so we wouldn’t get in trouble. I will never forget this moment. We actually got...
twenty five
I need to learn how to deal with my anger and learn how not to get annoyed with people. I hate fighting because I don’t see a point to it. I want to learn how to let go of people. I want to learn how not to push people away. I want to grow up knowning I’ve lived in the moments. I want to look back see that one moment. That one moment where I finally figured out who I am. The one...
twenty four
I’m a very independent girl, and sometimes people think I’m weird because of it or a bitch because of it. The truth is, I’m scared to depend on people. I’m scared they’ll leave right when I need them. I’m afraid i’ll lose them or push them away. I believe in fighting for what I believe in and fighting for people I care about. I don’t like asking for help. ...
forever, forever is a mighty long time.
hmmm what number did i leave off? 23 or 24?
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“The sweetest sounds I’ll ever hear are still inside my head.
The kindest words...”
“What doesn’t kill you only makes you
stronger, and I really believe in that....”
Gingggerr!
joeythunder:
joeythunderthighs:
joeythunder:
thischaradeisover:
joeythunder:
thischaradeisover:
yes you Joey!
could you pretty please stop reblogging that food.
I feel sick as it is.
I’d rather not vomit.
Thank you!
because you called me GINGER, i don’t think I will…..our english grub is da bom, <2+1
but I always call you Ginger. It thought you didn’t mind.
D: sorry
I...
“Sometimes it takes hundreds of miles and hours of quiet bus rides to make you...”
so tired...
When can it all end? When can I finally close my eyes and just sleep forever. Not die but just sleep. Sleep without missing anything. Just sleep and dream about you. Dream about everything I want. I’m scared right now. I’m scared that I won’t make it to graduation. I’m scared I’m falling behind and I’m scared my world will come crashing down. After...
“I wanna be the first thing on your mind every
morning, the one who knows it`s...”
“It’s 2am and she’s lying in her bed staring at the ceiling. All...”
some friend...
I don’t understand you one little bit, you hide so much from me. You never let me help you, or hug you. You mess up my head and play games with my heart. I shouldn’t love you, but there’s something that keeps me holding on. Maybe it’s the hope that you’re going to change one day soon and stop hurting me. Or maybe it’s the fact that I’m in too deep and...
“You taught me how to be strong, how to hold my head high, you said you’d...”
“I am one of the searchers. There are, I believe, millions of us. We are not...”
i love you
I just want to say it. I want to shout it to the world. I want everyone to know. I love you. I want you. I need you.
I’m crazy.