“It’s got nothing to do with being a perfect, goody-goody, selfless, sacrificing, spiritual saint. Blah! That whole characterization was meant for a different audience at a different time, & they really had issues. It’s got everything to do with being yourself, trusting the magic, following your heart, dreaming big & having fun.”—
“Sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today’s possibility under tomorrow’s rug until we can’t anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying.”—
“Even when you’re not sure where you’re headed, it helps to know you’re not going there alone. No one has all the answers, and sometimes the best thing to do is just apologize and let the past be the past. Other times we need to look to the future and know that even when we think we’ve seen it all, life can still surprise us, and we can still surprise ourselves.”—
“i don’t want to let you go. i don’t want to disappoint you. i want to be the one who brings tears to your eyes and make you happy. i want to spend forever in your arms and your already stuck in my heart…”—me
“now would you love me if i was crazy…i’m going crazy for you. i’m crazy for you. we can stay this way forever…if i’m romeo and your juliet as long as i’m breathing i’ll love you to death… i swear i’ll do anything that you want me too they tell me i’m crazy for falling for you.”—the summer set “young”
well, saturday was a rollercoaster of horrors. i sprained my knee and now i can’t really bend it or even put jeans on. its whateverr, i saw alice in wonderland and i loved it so much. i don’t see what people are saying when they don’t like it. i found it to be
really good but i never saw the orginal. then around 10:30 there was a car & motorcyle crash outside my apartments leaving a man dead. he was just lying there dead and the police only put a white sheet over him. i saw the blood and the girl crying. it really freaked me out.
as sunday rolls on, i’m off to see shutter island and starbucks later.
“Mom, listen. I haven’t been together with Topanga for twenty-two years, but we have been together for sixteen. Okay, that’s a lot longer than most couples have been together. I mean, when we were born, you told me that we used to take walks in our strollers together in the park. When we were two, we were best friends. I mean, I knew everything about this girl. I knew her favorite color. I knew her favorite food. Then we became six, you know, and Eric made fun of me because it wasn’t cool to have a best friend that was a girl or even know a girl, so for the next seven years I threw dirt at her. I like to call those “the lost years”. Then when I was thirteen, Mom, she put me up against my locker and she kissed me. I mean, she gave me my first kiss. She taught me how to dance. She was always talking about these crazy things and I never understood a word she said. All I understood was that she was the girl I sat up every night thinking about, and when I’m with her I feel happy to be alive. Like I can do anything. Even talk to you like this. So that’s, that’s what I feel is love Mom…”—Boy Meets World
I started a Starwars marathon, so far I’ve only watched the last three. I love Yoda, he is creepy but gives you knowledge that you can truly use. I wish I could be inspiring. Or have the strength just to get through the day. As I get older everything feels like it’s coming crashing down. Life just moves so freaking fast, people die, babies are born and I feel stuck in between my dreams and reality. You’ve taught me and showed me many things. You’ve taught me I can be strong, I can love without fear. You showed me the feeling of being in someone’s arms when they mean the world to you. So many wonderful things. Thank you for that. You’ve also showed me that people break promises, over and over again. You’ve taught me that you can love someone more than anything in the world. That just because someone says something, that doesn’t mean it’s true. You’ve showed me wonderful things just as well as horrible things. I do thank you for both. You’ve now prepared me for the harsh world I am entering but what if I left you down? Thank you for teaching me but I’m scared I’ll you down.
you’re everything i want. you’re everything i need. you’re what gets me through the day, you take a bad day and light my way. when i fall, i think of you and some how i’m fine. it’s crazy, how much a person can be in love. no adult wants to believe teenagers can love and be loved.
if i had only one choice to either love, be loved or be in love, i’d choose to love you. i want to make you smile, happy and love you. i want to wake up in your arms.
i want to annoy you and hold onto you forever. i don’t want to lose you…ever.
“Fear remains constant in love. When you first meet someone, you’re afraid you’ll like him. When you like him, you’re afraid of kissing him, when you kissed him, you’re afraid of falling in love. When you’ve fallen in love uncontrollably, you’re scared to lose him.”—
i want, i want, i want. no. i have a mom who is annoying, mean and loves me. even though i put her through hell and she puts me through it. we still love each other. i have amazing friends who i love. i have a boyfriend who is basically my everything. he makes me stronger and i love him more than anything. it’s time for me to grow up. i can’t keep leaving in this dream world. i have a good life, i get to do things. i finally realize there will always be something new or better but i need to be thankful for what i have.
life has been full of shit and i’m sick of people making feel like shit. i am who
i am. it may never be enough or even fit your standards but i just don’t care. i’m the person who has to look in the
mirror. i’m the person who has to live myself forever. you can call me names…it’s fine. i’m not and all that matters is that i know it.
you can call society fake but make sure your not.
blah blah blah
love love love
why is love so scary? why am i scared of losing you in seconds?
i so love more than anything <3
goodnight los anges, i sleep with fear and wonder as my blanket.
“And it was at this point in my life—when my parents just didn’t get it, when my teachers couldn’t give a shit, and worst of all, when I started to realize that even my friends were not who I thought they were—it’s at this point that music became my only salvation. It’s at this point that music exuded this uncanny power to truly affect who I was and who I could become. And it was at this point that it did. Because it’s at this point that someone you don’t even know can say something that will change the course of your life, or at the very least just give you a new perspective on your struggles.”—Gabe Saporta (via intelligentlyscrewed) (via backwardblackbyrd) (via burneddd) (via betweensheetsandeyelids) (via diosamitch)
“friends have their fights. some don’t talk for days, weeks, months or even years. during those times they say thing they don’t mean and lose trust by the second. for awhile they hate each other but before you know it, some have the strength and dignity to apologize. before you know it, no matter how long it has been, you’re talking on the phone. first time in almost a year, it’s not even weird. it’s actually feels like you pick up right where you left off and it feels good, like a part of you is put back , a part that’s been lost for a long time.”—
“it’s been said that goldfish only have a memory span of three seconds , but maybe goldfish are like people in a lot of ways . they only pretend they can’t remember so that the past won’t catch up to them . maybe they think it will make them strong to the rest of the world by acting like nothing can get to them . but they aren’t just lying to everyone else . they’re lying to themselves because you can only pretend for so long until you can’t push away the memories anymore .”—
is it weird when it’s like you feel homesick for a place that doesn’t even exist? i don’t feel like i even have a home. i’m in this mindset that i’ll never truly find a home thats mine. i just want to find who i am and where i belong. i want to be able to stand on my own feet. i don’t want to need my mom or someone to hold my hand every second. i want to find my voice, i can’t even ask for help when i really need it. i always pictured growing up but now it scares me… what if i fail? what if i don’t make it. i’m trying to learn from my bad choices and even though there are some things i can never change, it’s life. i can be strong, right? i can make it…i don’t want to just want to live without being happy. i don’t want to look back in 20 years and regret everything i have done or who i will become. i’m in love, i want it to last. i don’t want my fear to ruin it. i don’t want to always be afraid. i don’t want people to get the best of me. why is life so hard? maybe i’m just the only one making it hard. what is going on…
forget the past, live for tomorrow; because nothing is stopping you from following your dreams.
“Who are you to judge me? You have not lived my life, you have not been put under the same situations that have made me the person I am. So next time you point fingers, recognize I how I lift my middle one up and scream fuck you.”—