Some things, however, are true no matter how hard you might try to block them out, a lie is always a lie, no matter how prettily told. Some doors,once they’re opened, can never be closed again, just as some trust, once it’s been lost, can never be won back
life is the ability to feel so happy, you think your insides are going to explode. it’s being so upset or disappointed, you feel as if your stomach just dropped ten feet out of place. it’s running so hard, you can barely breathe. it’s the feeling of panic when you know you’ve been caught doing something wrong. it’s having that sudden rush before you kiss someone you care about. it’s opening your eyes and feeling them sting because you spent the whole night crying. it’s letting people go because new ones come in, and all the while realizing that life doesn’t have a purpose unless you let it.
No matter what I do, I think of you somehow. I may go the whole day without thinking about you, but then at the end of the day I think about it. I think about you. It’s been one year, exactly. Last year was the best birthday I had ever had, by far. I stupidly fell in love with you and now my birthday is tainted with your memory. I just hope in a few years I will be able to completely forget, at least for the most part.
To forget somebody isn’t possible. Deep inside, you remember everything. You may not think of them for years at a time but you don’t know how to forget. You can recall the way they smiled when they were happy and the way their faces showed no expression when they couldn’t find their way.